| It's gangrenous, we'll have to amputate! |
[May. 5th, 2005|12:47 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  drained | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The voices in my head | ] |
Well it's back to the grind and man does it ever suck. A heads up to those of my friends who want to go to college do it quick before your brain turns into swiss cheese. The holes in the gray matter make it hard to concentrate.
So long and thanks for all the fish,
Moon |
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| No more finals! |
[Apr. 25th, 2005|07:36 pm] |
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| |  content | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Wicked & Wierd ~ Buck 65 | ] |
WooHoo! I get to breathe again for a little while. I finished my last final tonight and I won't have to deal with it again for another 7 1/2 weeks. Sorry to my friends about me being out in space lately. I feel horrible that I haven't had time to talk to anyone. Some major changes are going on in my life. I don't drink anymore and I'm trying to quit smoking. I have been re-evaluating alot of my ideas on how the world works and they have come up seriously lacking. I guess that all of this self-imposed isolation is making me think. So much for thinking you've got it all figured out, right? Well my friends I'll see you on the flip side. If any of you have free time give me a call. Ben especially since I have no clue how to get ahold of him. (Hint, hint, Heather!)
Love & Biscuits
Moon |
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| Squeeeeedles! They eat my feet! |
[Mar. 5th, 2005|03:15 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  crazy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Eerie buzzin' in me head | ] |
I just figured I'd post cuz I'm still breathin". That's about that for now. |
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| The shock is still gnawing at me. |
[Feb. 23rd, 2005|12:53 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  shocked | ] |
| [ | music |
| | None | ] |
There I was just sittin' at home and I heard it from three different people in the matter of about ten minutes. It took almost an hour before it sunk in and I am just now starting to react. I think I cried but I can't remember. One more brilliant mind gone into the ethereal abyss. "Too strange to live and too rare to die." I keep hearing Fear and Loathing and I want to scream at people, "What about Rum Diaries or Generation of Swine, Have you assholes absoulutely no culture, the man who put Rolling Stone on the map just painted his house with his brain and you fucks have only ever seen one stinkin' movie!" But too many people don't bother opening a book let alone actually reading one in their lives. So I guess I'll just have to get over it and go on in my lonely sorrow.
MOON
No biscuits today my friends, no biscuits today. |
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| Another day, another monkey. |
[Feb. 16th, 2005|11:59 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  bouncy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Led Zepplin - No Quarter | ] |
So yeah, life's good right now, very good. I just wish that I could keep my head from spinning and regain my balance, so much has happened to me in the last couple of weeks. To my homies, I really miss talking to youz guyz. And I've even been trying to find time in my hectic schedule to get in contact with a few of ya. But apparently the times that I call are the times that you aren't there or somethin'. Oh well. I guess I'll get over it. But if anyone happens to be in contact with Ben after they read this please tell him to try and get ahold of me. Well I gotta go but I'll post or get ahold of someone eventually.
Love and Biscuits, Moon.
P.S. Radio, man have I got some CRAZY weird news for you. Call me. |
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| Happy mandatory hallmark card holiday. |
[Feb. 14th, 2005|10:24 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  ecstatic | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Little Red Ridin' Hood | ] |
LOOVE to all my homies, I hope today treats you right. I'm smilin' Tee Hee.
Much luv & bizkitz |
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| If I could see into the future I would never stub my toe again! |
[Feb. 7th, 2005|12:08 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  bitchy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Nickelback- Figured you out | ] |
Yeah so i'm online now to all of ya that care to mail me. YAY! Still don't have a lot of time so I can't promise how good I'll be at mailing back. But things are good and they're bad. i hate that whole one half of your life goes great while the other half goes down the drain shite. Oh Well, I guess there's nothin' to do but kick somethin' and get the hell over it. School is draining sometimes and kid is draining all the time, relationships are taking the back burner out of neccessity. God I wish I was a fuckin' hermit livin' in a cave somewhere and I didn't have to deal with people who "get what I'm saying" but don't understand. Ackkkk! I just wanna stab somethin', but other than that I'm cool.
Love & Biscuits, Moon |
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| ACKKKKKKKK! |
[Jan. 25th, 2005|09:49 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  devious | ] |
Reality bites and it took my pinkie toe. SCHOOOOOOOOOL! EEEEEEEK! Studyin' and stuff, I can't wanna do it. But I gotta. SO...... my classmate made me feel kinda dumb today cuz apparently I can't punctuate for shite. But other than that twas a good day. Just figured I'd post and let ya'll know I'm still kickin'
LOOOOOOOVE & Bisquits, Moon |
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| Ackkkkk! An update! |
[Jan. 24th, 2005|01:44 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | crazy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Nothin' Arghhhh! | ] |
So yeah, school, munchkin, homework, catchin' up with old friends, and making new ones. That's what life's been like lately. School's been sorta trying at times but mostly fun. I feel bad cuz I was supposed to call Radio and Green and I totally forgot cuz I had to rewrite my Human Relations paper. Sorry guyz, I still love ya I just barely have time for myself right now. I wish I could be in like five places at once right now. Then I could hang with my Homies, do my homework, go to class and spend enough time with my kid. And that would be awesome, but I am limited by the constraints of humanity so I can only get one thing done at a time. To all my friends that don't think they rate anymore, you do right after kid and school, and before me. I wish I could spend more time with all of you. When summer semester gets here things will be easier cuz I'll have half as many classes. Love and Biscuits ya'll, Moon |
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| Such is life. |
[Dec. 13th, 2004|06:45 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  contemplative | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Spidey 2 soundtrack | ] |
I heard the footsteps and read all the signs. The warnings were posted fast and hard in the trail of oncoming winter. So many days all I see is gray and I only regret that I have to wait for the end results to see if I did it all wrong. This balancing act has got me strung up and strung out. And so many things drift past me in a haze. Some questions have no answers and others are better left un-asked. A very dear friend asked me today if I ever felt like I was merely surviving, never really getting past subsistance. They didn't know if they could bear to be one of those people. And the more I think about that question the more I realize, that's all any of us are doing. Regardless of the steps we take or the directions we travel we survive to take the next step and that is all we can do. I'm greatly tired of the people who pass judgement on a person for the path they choose. Regardless of personal standards or level of happiness these so called "worthless/aimless/ambitionless individuals" are judged because they don't lead the life that another aspires to. Perhaps they are simply content to lead the life they do. Perhaps they realize that elation is a passing emotion and the bedrock of a life without self doubt and recrimination is being content with the path you've chosen. The highs of so-called happiness lead to equal if not greater lows of depression. I can only say that for me any life in which I can look back and not regret the experiences and choices I've made is a good one. And maybe, just maybe that's enough for these people that are so often harshly judged.
To all of my friends with difficult life decisions ahead of them, remember the only person you have to live with for the rest of your life is yourself. Don't let others get you down or force you on a path you'd rather not follow. Be yourself and live the way you want to, mistakes made in the past can be corrected by not making them again. So no experience is a mistake, it's something to learn from and you can't get things right the first time every time.
Love and Biscuits,Moon |
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| Yayyy! School! |
[Dec. 1st, 2004|11:29 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  busy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Nothin' again (bummer) | ] |
Got all my registration stuff done, yipeee! I'm just glad that it is all done, until next semester. Time to stuff the knowledge into all the little nooks and crannies of my brain. For some reason that doesn't sound very comfortable. Basically what I'm sayin' is that any of youz that wants to hang out should get ahold of me before the beginning of Jan. Cuz after that I'm totally booked, pun intended.
Hey Radio youz should give me a call cuz I might be able to get the car sometimes I just gotta know when so I can give my mom a little advance warning.
See ya'll later
Love and Biscuits, Moon. |
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| Gackkkkkk! and stuff |
[Nov. 19th, 2004|10:40 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | annoyed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Soup on a stick - Brak | ] |
I have Jellyfish in my freezer and a monkey on my coffee table. Or something. Well now I'm not sure about school cuz my Mom was supposed to front me the money to register till my loans came in but we got in a huge argument about the fact that I didn't know how much my books wil cost. How the fuck am I supposed to know that, I don't have mind-readie powers or anything. So now cuz I'm not telepathetic I might not get to go to school. And of course she has to bust this on me the week before registration. But oh well right, that's the way the cookie crumbles sometimes. I just really want to start school and I'm starting to get pissed at the fuckin' roadblocks everyone keeps throwin' in my way. On top of that my car is dyin' and I still gotta find a job. If I don't find one soon I'm gonna have'ta be a needle jockey, Plasma donation here I come. I HATES NEEDLES, I HATES THEM. But if I gotta do it to gets the cash I will. Other than that stuff life is good, I loves my munchkin, I loves the Gimp, and I loves my friends. What else do ya need? Only a Frreakin' college ejimication and a job! Arrrgh! Gackkkkk! Destroy the evil-doers.
Love and Biscuits, Moon |
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| HA CHA CHA! |
[Nov. 5th, 2004|11:55 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | content | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Nothin' (depressin' ain't it?) | ] |
So yeah, life's goood! I'm gettin' all my college stuff straight, Wee Hoo! I'm super excited about goin' back to school. I'm doin' good and havin' a great time, what more can ya ask for? Well that's all that's new and the belly demons are screamin' so I must go now.
Love and Biscuits, Moon |
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| GRAAAAA HA HA! |
[Oct. 20th, 2004|10:07 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | amused | ] |
| [ | music |
| | La La lala La la (Smurfs) (Don't ask) | ] |
Tee Hee LJ finally lets me post. YaY! Sorry to the Xero 'bout the Van, that sux. I haven't been doin' too much lately, just hanging out with my munchkin and gettin' my school crap straight. Just found out today that I have to find another 700 or 800 dollars somewhere in order to go, blaech! NOT HAPPY, NOT HAPPY AT ALL! I miss my Gimp seems like he's been kinda in deep space lately. But this as with other things shall pass in it's own time. I've just dipped my big toe into the chilly waters of gender discrimination in my future profession, and I'm ready to do battle and win this is gonna be fun. Run you narrow minded rednecks, it's a female grease-monkey. Well I just figured I'd post a little cuz I haven't in a while, so I'll check ya all later. To Green, Xero, Gimp, and all the others that I give two shits about keep it real. To everyone else, it's been swell but the swelling's gone down.
Wuv & Biscuits
Moon |
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| ARRRRRRGH!!!!!!!! |
[Sep. 19th, 2004|04:00 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  bored | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Somethin playin on the puter | ] |
Okeeday so the boredom is starting to get to me. I needs to find something to do. Sittin around watchin' video games is not my idea of entertaining. Oh well such is life. Monkey of biscuit destruction I shall have my vengance. Die, DIIIIIIEEEEE!
Just Love, cuz the monkey destroyed my biscuits
Moon |
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| On a sea of violation the pirates ride. |
[Sep. 3rd, 2004|03:53 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | contemplative | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Traffic & the hum of a fan | ] |
So yeah, I'm still happy but in a heavy sort of serious way today. I'm starting to scare myself and I feel like I'm falling. Damn that concrete is coming up fast! I think I feel too much for my own damn good. I don't know where I left my airbrakes but I damn sure could use them now. I had the most peaceful dream last night, I don't have peaceful dreams. This sense of comfort is something I'm not used to and I don't know how to handle it sometimes. It's been almost a month now and I can only remember a few that were, not better but similar in the level of contentedness I feel. Please, please whatever higher power is out there, don't let me come down too hard.
Love & Biscuits
Moon |
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| Take what you will. |
[Jun. 16th, 2004|04:09 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | content | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Dream Theatre | ] |
Some things in life cannot be explained. And the only thing to do is enjoy them. Enough said. |
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| Oh, the insanity! |
[Jun. 14th, 2004|12:13 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | annoyed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Type O - Life is killing me | ] |
So there's been alot of thinking lately. Too much thinking from my point of view. From me and from other people. But on another note I got a job. Get the fuck outta my way or I'm gonna dock your ass!! You will be perforated. So I start work tomorrow and I don't know if I'll be able to go to Jeff's B-day party or Birthday Bash. But at this point work is more important. So if I'm not around very often it's not because I don't like you guys. I just need the money. I have officially given up on the playing nice and various other socially acceptable behaviors. I miss talking to the people I used to talk to on a regular basis. And lately it feels as though i'm being blown off on a regular basis by the whole world. No-one has specifically done anything to make me feel this way. So don't go gettin' mad or anything like that. It's just a feeling I get from time to time. But I'm going to go now, so love & biscuits to those who matter. A big pile a shit to those who don't. |
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| aslkgjnbuhgapmerughm cfvhdllkrigpano hgoafihoamvsort |
[Jun. 11th, 2004|03:07 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | crazy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Beastie Boys | ] |
Yuuuuup. That's what reality sounds like today. Aoidnouer qowi dfiarivugslq erqwe8tyv r9asga. Translation: Where is this Cypress Grove plcae that you guys found and I'm not going to be able to come out today but I'll call ya about that later. Yesterday went really well i gotz to vizit my munchkin. Joe is the transformer, I mean transporter and he's way nice so it's all good.
i went to my head shrinky appointment this morning and I think i'm insane, cuz I would have absolutely no problem screwing my shrink. I think that any normal person would think that's insane. O-Well guess I'm crazy.
Transformers, more than meets the eye. I really miss the original version of that cartoon along with Thundercats & He-Man. Being a kid was so much cooler than being an adult. But that's the way the cookie crumbles.
Loooooove & BZKTZ |
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| Way too early to think |
[Jun. 10th, 2004|09:29 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | nostalgic | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Afternoons & Coffeespoons(Crash Test Dummies) | ] |
So it's like 9 somethin' in the morning and usually I just run on auto-pilot until Noon. But for some reason today I'm wide awake. One of God's cruel tricks I'm afraid. Nothing against God but She/He/It has a wicked sense of humor sometimes. Just look to the mysterious Platypus as evidence. You would have to have a skewed sense of humor to create a poisonous beaver-duck on purpose, wouldn't you?
I'm just sitting here this morning, sipping my vanilla hazlenut crunch coffee(whatever happened to plain old coffee flavored coffee) contemplating the vast mysteries of the universe. How exactly does a Cheerio perform? Why is the word typewriter all on the top row of the keyboard? How have communists everywhere failed to actually practice communism? Why are goldfish crackers so delicious? Why do cars only break down when you have plans? How do you have a love-hate relationship? Did Humans actually luck out on the evolutionary scale, or do we just think we did?
So many things in this world are left up to interpretation and I seem to constantly come to the wrong conclusion. I used to think that I had a firm grasp on the way life works. But lately I have been proven wrong on many occaisions. Maybe it's just that my perception has gone awry in the last few years. But I think not. The world that I knew 3 years ago has come to a screeching halt and been replaced by something I am totally unfamiliar with. Maybe I have too grasping of a nature and am easily dissatisfied with ordinary pursuits. Or maybe I just miss the deeper conversations of the philisophical crowd I used to hang with. Nothing against any of the people I hang out with now. I love hanging out with you guys, but on the same note I miss my old friends sometimes. But they're not the same people anymore, or I'd still be hanging out with them. I guess I'm just nostalgic for the days when I had the time to sit around talking about Philosophy and Politics.
I feel old today not in body or mind but in spirit, like I just woke up from this hazy sleep state and realized all of the things I've been through in this life. I started thinking about where I am at this point in life and I noticed that I should be much further. I know exactly how I got here, but I have no idea of how to get myself back to where I should be. I have no-one to blame for this divergence but myself and when you realize that you are the root of all of your problems it can be a bitter pill. The only course left to me is to change and hope I come out on a better vantage point. I just hope I don't lose the things I love about myself along the way.
See what thinking too early in the day gets you?
Love & Biscuits |
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